Hi miina ! How are ya ?? I hope you guys are fine and have a wonderful life
Sorry for being inactive in dA for these months. University life is really busy, especially in this term. Lots of my time was spent with doing homeworks or studying (and reading manga XD). It's rare to have time for drawing... Also, my internet modem got broken, so I can't watch anime or youtube
. However, thanks for my android so I still can use the hotspot service to open internet, but I still can't watch anime because it really will eat lots of my internet quota, and I still need it to use whatsapp or for doing my homeworks. I hope I can fix my modem soon...
About my life ? Well it's like the heart pulse, up and down, hahaha. There's something good and bad that happened these months. The good one was I can fix something about my relation with my university friends and also with my club
. I feel really happy about it. I mean, it's like a feel when someone notice your appearance and appreciate that you are there. The bad one was my life usually like a shit... I mean, every week you got homeworks and test and it makes me frustated... I don't have any single free time to do something that I like. Also, I often to go sleep lately and it makes my body got dropped in February. If you ask why I can write a journal, well it's because I'm in mid term test week and I've finished my study for tomorrow's test, so I have some free time to open dA hehe
Talking about mid term test, I hate them... Really... Every day after the test I always go home, go to my bed, feel like something is wrong and try to calm down so I don't hate myself.. Life just make me its toy and I'm tired with this. Even today, I almost ruin my test and I don't know if it will turn to be good or not... I don't what I'm doing and what should I do. Even if I talk about this with my friend, what I get is a solution that everything is all my fault and I'm the wrong one to think this way. Yeah, I know that it is right, but I can't receive that. I mean, you are in a position that you are so weak and can't do anything, although you've tried your best, but other people just ignore it and say that you must be better and better. Just F*ck it ! I'm tired, really
I prefer to get someone who says "it's okay" or someone that can put his hand to my back and shoulder... I'm fighting and trying to be strong, but I don't know until when I can stay to be like this... I'm tired... of everything...
*try to smile again*
For you all who have read all of those random words (HAHAHA), I just want to say thank you so much. Sorry if it's like a spam journal, but there's something that I can't talk to people in the real life, so I try to talk here, in dA
Uh oh by the way, my faculty make an open recruitment for new students to join faculty magazine club. If you want to join, you can send your CV and the member of the club will make an interview with you. What make me see that it's interesting that there's an empty slot in graphic design position. In that position, you will be the one who design and layouting the magazine.
Now, I feel uncertain. I mean, should I send a CV for that position ? You know that I don't have any skill in design or layouting but I heard that there's still a chance about drawing there. However if I join the club, I'll be busier than before and I won't get more free time for myself. I'm also afraid that I can't do anything good in design... The deadline to send the CV is March 19th at 23.59, yep it just more 2 days and it's over...
So what should I do ??? I hope yo guys can help me for this.
For the last, I want to say that I'm officially HIATUS, so I think it will be rare for me to submit any drawing like now. However, if you want to send me messaged, I'll try my best to reply it
Sorry that I haven't done the drawing... Sorry it's just like I give you a really empty promise. I'll try my best to have a time to do it. Sorry once again...